I’ve been overwhelmed lately….
Listen to: Lost boy Jaden Smith
X: I’m unhappy with the person i’m becoming and the way my life is going.
Like, I have 4 exams in the next 4 days in which I don’t know the material and the teachers really cannot help my cause it’s literally the last week of classes and I missed all last week cause I was sick so like…. it’s not even their fault.
Work is just so depressing and there are a bunch of people that aren’t very nice so it’s at a point where I actually have to mentally prepare myself to go to work cause I never know what I’m gonna get.
And honestly, I just don’t like the person I’m becoming. I’m so negative now I disgust myself.
~I don’t have like any hope
Y: Damn :(
X: Life goes on
Y: I think you’re at the toughest stage in your life rn. But once you overcome this,
You’ll be ready and unbeatable. The negativity is the byproduct of your pain. But only you can change that
X: I’ve been in “the toughest stage” for 2 years now tbh..
Y: Yup, it’ll pass trust.
And I don’t think life gets easier btw
I think our way of dealing with things does.
We become stronger and better
To the point that we know how to deal with difficult times better.
So that it doesn’t affect us as much or for as long as it does now.
we’re still learning and growing.
x: I honestly don’t think we’re learning and growing and all that good stuff.
Y: Why?
X: We just don’t
Like I’ve been having people give me that positivity thingy but if we being real.. people just have shittier lives than others.
We just accept it and move.
Y: Honestly I see what you’re saying.
X: Yeah, it builds character and all that but what does the character matter if it’s getting hard and harder? Not really. It’s make sense if we going from our hard lives to easy ones, but we here so.
Y: I see that, but I also believe that the the way you look at it becomes your reality.
I could chose to say others have it easier and our lives are shitty
But that mindset lets life defeat me
I’d see myself as a victim and I refuse to be.
As crazy as this sounds, I do believe that things can get better.
everyone has struggles
The richest people who we think have everything fucking kill themselves?
x: You can see yourself as a victim and still work hard tho, that’s what people never mention. You can know life isn’t in your favor and not be complacent still.
y: Yeah but most of the time if you feel like life is against you or accept it that removes 60% of your motivation already.
So it’s harder to stay ambitious
x: I believe things CAN get better but I refuse to assume they WILL because personally my life has been on a downward spiral since 2015 so I have no reason to make that assumption.
Y: All it takes to defeat life to me is putting a shit ton of blood sweat and tears in developing yourself and making yourself stronger mentally and emotionally. that way you can deal with the hard times well, but also enjoy the good times to the fullest.
x: I disagree that if you know it’s not favoring you then your motivation in lost
Y: The other thing is that this life is fucking temporary.
It’s really not meant to be perfect
Like perfection is in heaven
So yeah in that sense life is against us
But we can make the best out of it.
X: So I should just ignore reality?
Y: no but if you continue expecting things to be bad so they stay bad fr.
Accept your circumstances now
And use it in a constructive way.
Like identify what’s not working for you rn and what’s causing these unwanted emotions and try to change that.
x: But the thing is, I need to go on with life. Me “fixing” myself would mean putting real life on pause and to be honest, this is where people like us suffer from life. We need to get our shit together while in the middle of shit and it’s hard to mop water in the rain.
And that’s just reality.
Text from anonymous