Casually, I aim to suppress the magnitude of what is a disease to me

An over feeling heart

Got me losing parts

Of who I am

Cause it bleeds out the good in me

Over pumps the happiness in me

Donates that to the fuck boy charity

Now I’m left with broken-ness

And an empty me

Sorrow overcomes the shame I feel for my Naivete

How could I ever believe you’d invest in me?

You wanted the best from me but not all of me

I shared with you the best in me

Now i’m left with the side of me I did not want to see

So I dine with my demons alone and drown in fantasies

Of perfect scenes that will never materialize into reality

But instead its a sea of salt-filled tears. Neap tides to high tides

an undying calamity.

Casually, I come to accept my dying arteries carrying misery from my heart

Just for my veins with its memory to bring it all back

The nerve of you to make me wait in vain

The nerve of you to present me pain and put my hopes to shame

But you would not understand

You seem completely oblivious

Undoubtedly devious

I hate you.